I was thinking about things the other day and looking at my numbers, this makes the 100th post on From Rae With Love. I wanted to initially talk about how I’ve grown over the last two years. Through blogging, through sharing and being transparent here online. I still plan to, but this post took over instead.
While it may not seem like a lot, it means over the last few years, I managed not to quit – although I’ve threatened it a few times. I’m not the only person who thinks like this – Jill Scott has spoken about trying to sabotage her music career as well – just so she could go back to being ‘normal.’ To be perfectly honest, I don’t think I can quit writing at this point. The words always flow. I hear the stories come through and I write them down.
But there’s something about sticking to it – about hanging in there. I was on the way home last night and sat on the train. I look up and I see this grasshopper. I had about 13 stops to ride. Not sure how long he’d been on there, or how long he rode but he hung on for all 13 stops. During the ride I’m pretty sure I saw him clean his face or whatever it is grasshoppers do with their front legs when they rub their face.
And for that brief moment it let me know how real God is – what are the odds a grasshopper would be able to ride the window of a metro train for so many stops? Against wind and speed? It’s impressive. I’ve always been impressed at how bugs can hang on at 80 mph on the windshield of a car.
I figured if the grasshopper can hang on, then I can too. Which is important to note here. Mostly because it’s not about writing, it’s about perseverance. I’m not the only person who suffers this. So many talented and amazing people, artists, thinkers, creators and leaders speak to the same issues. How do you avoid burn out? I don’t know if you always can. I think you have to allow for it to happen and then get back to doing what you’re supposed to be doing. Sometimes it’s not even burnout, it’s more of a shift in who you are. As a result, we can’t always keep up with what’s happening to us as a person. Sometimes those breaks are necessary to get with it. I want to make sure I can stand with the content I produce. It’s not something I am willing to sacrifice. Hence why I haven’t published yet – but it’s coming!
The longer I live, the more I realize just how much I have yet to learn. That being said, my level of compassion and empathy continues to expand. Funny how they are directly related isn’t it? What I see as important has shifted. What matters and doesn’t matter to me has become clearer. Maybe that’s what happens as the years continue on, maybe it’s a threshold of experiences. I haven’t quite figured it out.
Real talk – the grasshopper symbolized hope and perseverance. That even when you’re on an exceptionally fast train, glued to a window, God can equip you with what you need to hang on until you get where you need to go.
Here’s to making it. Here to hanging on. Here’s to persistence and here’s to stopping to have a moment to yourself.
Thank you all for continuously coming back, for following me on twitter and for being an amazing supportive force. Without your feedback, without you to read it, this blog wouldn’t be what it is – and I wouldn’t have grown as much as I have.
I may have had as much of a chance of becoming a decent writer as he did of hanging on to that window. Yet and still both of us are here.
God works in mysterious ways.
Hang in there.
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