Life measured in jelly beans….. earlier this year, I came across this video and as you can see 3 million others have as well.
I haven’t always liked math – some math. When the math is in my favor – how much money I’ve made, money won or gifted, carats, weight loss and other things I won’t mention here, but you get the idea – where numbers matter…..
So lets talk numbers – when I started this post, we had 69 days, 12 hours,15 minutes and some change until the end of 2013.
Where has my year gone? What have I done with it? What have I learned?
I’ve seen a few posts over the year where the assholes of the blogosphere ask people if it was their year. Like was this your year? Nah? You didn’t get married, you didn’t have any kids, you didn’t do all of that stuff you said you were going to do. Basically, what they are saying it to shut up and take it as it’s handed to you.
I can’t deal with that idea.
If that was the case, most of us wouldn’t have made any progress whatsoever. While all of the above are meaningful pursuits, I can also say surviving the year is also a worthy accomplishment. If you have a family and everyone is doing ok, that’s an added blessing. If you’re healthy and are gainfully employed, also a bonus. Waking up and breathing has become it’s own blessing each day. No matter the rest of it. My outlook on life changed this year.
My year was spent really testing the coping skills I’ve developed. From hard news, to life changes, to work, to travel and to just navigating the ups and the downs. It’s been spent resetting my trust-meter to understand when people are bullshitting and when people are real. It’s been spent sleeping, writing and exploring what it means to be a blogger. It’s been spent defining who I am as a woman and re-evaluating who is important, what’s important and what I want in my life. It’s been a year of watching people hold their cards, bluff and play them to win. It’s been one of understanding and admitting more to myself about myself and accepting truths. You know what else? It’s also been about knocking over some things I previously believed were true – that it’s ok to change your mind, and is in fact a welcome event. It’s been a year of transparency and the blessings and benefits it brings along with honesty.
It’s actually been a serious year. It’s also been one of the most difficult years. The kerfluffles I’ve had to navigate have been complicated. But it’s been the best year because I learned how to navigate the downs as well as the ups a hell of a lot better than I have in the past.
So while there are others out here who will ask you “if it was your year?” Ask them was it theirs? If I’m still here, clearly it was my year. So, yes – it’s been my year.
Others aren’t as into the concept of new beginnings and years. But the passage of time isn’t something to ignore. I remember being five. I remember graduating. I remember skipping my college graduation. I remember moving to DC. I was 25 when I moved here. I remember turning 30. I remember all of the jobs had over the years and the thousands of hours in love, on dates and in pursuit of love. Now, I realize how quickly time passes and how important it is to observe the time coming. We don’t have time left to mess around. It’s too important.
That’s another thing I learned this year – that I have purpose and it’s best for me to get to business and getting those things done. I feel like the clock has been moved up and the need to urgently get things done that were in my spirit – has become more important than ever. We’re not promised tomorrow. I also need to make sure when I meet God, He can tell me I did what I was designed and meant to do.
As I type this sentence, there are 69 days, 11 hours, 32 minutes and change left in the year. What will you do with the time?
What did you learn this year? Did you make any mistakes that taught you valuable lessons? What are you planning to do for the rest of the year? How are you preparing for 2014?
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